Tuesday, January 1, 2013

So this is the New Year

Like all of us, I've been thinking a lot about the past year. It's been a big one. A year of firsts. A year with little news, but lots of growth. And I think, after a lot of thinking and journaling and breathing, that I'm okay with that.

For the first time, I finished a novel I was proud of. I'd done one other novel, but it didn't get the point A TEAR BETWEEN WORLDS got to. I never revised it. Never re-wrote it. Never cried and ached and laughed over it. In 2012, I did it.

I queried.

I got rejected.

I got requests.

I got more rejections.

And I'm still querying.

It's been hard. When people didn't believe in my book, I started to lose faith in it. I started to say, maybe this isn't the one. Maybe I only wrote it for me. Maybe next year. Maybe this next one I've started on will get me where I want to be.

And you know what? Maybe all of that will end up being true, but I don't think it's what matters.

I write because it's part of who I am. I love stories. I want to tell them. I want them to be real. Hell, I want me to be real. That's what I want for 2013. To keep writing even when it gets discouraging. To keep telling stories and getting to know characters who force me to face my own fears and doubts and questions. To keep believing in myself.

My NaNo project has been on the shelf since the end of November. Last month was a whirlwind, with no time to write. But now that January is here, I've begun the research I probably should have completed before NaNo, and I'm really excited about where this book can go.

So I think for 2013, I won't have goals or resolutions. I think I'll just keep being me. I'll keep writing. I'll keep blogging. I'll keep living. And I won't lose faith in myself (at least not for more than a week at a time).

You guys are the best. I hope 2013 is a year of growing and stretching and breathing. I hope it's real for you.

5 comments:

  1. Well said! I'm reluctant to set any goals for 2013 in stone either. I have general ideas of what I'd like to improve on or accomplish this year, but those ideas could change from day to day and maybe that's a good thing. Happy New Year and I hope your research and writing continue to be exciting!

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  2. Very well said and a very healthy attitude.

    I was recently telling a woman in my writers group that though I am striving toward publication, I will always be a writer. Even if publication never happens, even if I never fully 'finish' a manuscript, I will always be a writer. And (most of the time), I feel very good about that.

    Happy New Year!

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  3. "To keep writing even when it gets discouraging." Yes! What a great goal. I've been finding it a bit discouraging lately, but I think taking most of December off to enjoy reading and getting into Christmas was a good idea. I feel more ready to tackle it all again. I think I'll be approaching the year in much the same way you are. :)

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  4. I love this post, Liz, and I'm right there with you. I write because I love it, and I love the community. Thank goodness for all my writing friends! And don't worry... I haven't touched my NaNo since I won, either. I still love it, but time has been limited. I can't wait to dive back in!

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  5. This: "I hope 2013 is a year of growing and stretching and breathing." Writing really is about the experience along the way, not the end goal(s).

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